Choice
Thunder cracks the sky above,
Lightning strikes the ground below,
The world cries out,
Another choice has been made.
As our choices shape reality,
A new world emerges,
Where the opposite choice,
Is made.
This happens everyday,
As a choice is made,
The long road becomes forked,
Signposted "This way to happiness" "That way to happiness".
Every second,
Every choice,
Every consequence,
And still no happiness for me.
I have tried,
To make all the correct choices,
But to no avail,
My life is hell.
As I wander these lonely roads,
All I can do is dream,
Dream of a life better than this,
The hell that is my life.
I drea
You strip away,
All the masks that I wear,
You see me,
With eyes open and true.
I’ve never,
Truly opened up to anyone,
Never allowed anyone,
To get this close.
Then I met you,
And you stripped away the masks,
All the lies I told myself,
And saw the truth in me.
You make me smile,
Every day,
You have changed my life,
You have changed my heart.
And for this gift,
I thank you
And hope I never,
Have to walk alone,
Again.
Masks
I feel so alone,
No one truly knows me,
I wear so many masks,
That sometimes I don't know myself.
I keep everyone at arms length,
So no one can get close,
This world will never know,
The things I am capable of.
This has always been the way,
Since I can remember,
My true self has never surfaced,
Always a mask on my face.
These masks have kept me safe,
They have harboured my deepest thoughts,
Shielded my mind from harm,
Kept my core protected.
But to never allow myself,
To exist in this world,
I not only deny myself to the world,
I deny myself to my own being as well.
There are days when feel,
That I will never emerg
Joanna
I try to find the words,
To try and accentuate,
These emotions,
Within this cold and empty body.
My body,
Ha,
I still think of it as that,
It is not my body anymore,
It belongs to her.
Joanna,
My captor,
My salvation,
I cannot tell,
Which she is.
On one hand,
She made me what I am,
She put me under her spell,
And now I am bound to her,
Her willing slave.
On the other hand,
She set me free,
Free from the shackles of rules,
Of laws and regulations,
Of life itself.
Joanna,
My captor,
My salvation,
I still cannot tell,
Which she is.